the older i get the fewer things i think i'm good at.
exception: ending sentences with a preposition. i will always be good at that.
maybe it was youthful bravado but i used to think i was pretty awesome at a lot of things.
i can't seem to remember what exactly but that's what happens when you turn 30...you forget and it's awesome.
i had silly ideas about what living life looked like.
no experience really. just ideas.
cooking. cleaning. juggling work and home. babies. healthy living. optimism.
i was gonna have it all together.
those 20's sure do teach you a lot.
mine weren't as fun as i thought they'd be.
sure, there were some fun parts. lots maybe.
but lots of hard stuff too.
like finding a real job. getting married (living with a boy is hard, y'all). pets. buying homes.
uh, growing up.
and then there was that whole almost-divorce thing.
not to mention other losses and heartaches.
JTT and I are apparently NOT soulmates.
i'm a grown-up now.
this whole real-life thing is strange because i'm now completely uninhibited.
i mean i CAN have cookies for breakfast.
mama ain't gonna stop me.
but then, well, there are consequences.
you know, things like heartburn and lovehandles.
a moment of silence for our pocket books, please.
so real life is kinda messy.
and fun but not always fun.
sometimes really hard.
it's full of things i hope to get done. things i will never get done. and a whole lotta trying to stay "balanced".
whatever the heck that is anyway.
my house is messy way more often than i'd like.
i want to eat fresh, organic food all the time but i have a weakness for things like mac-n-cheese
(don't even try to tell me it tastes just as good with cauliflower in it)
and well, we all know my enthusiasm for sweets.
i sometimes go to bed without a shower when i really should have one.
i've been known to wear the same clothes 2 days in a row.
and i wear my hair in a bun most days just so i won't have to do anything with it.
point is: well, nothing really.
just that i'm guessing we're all pretty much the same.
i don't have it together.
not even close.
so from one messy life to another - welcome friend.
don't stress too much over what you think you have to do.
what you want to do.
what you should do.
what you wish you could do.
give yourself a little slack.
go sit outside and enjoy the sun (with sunscreen please).
or eat that ice cream.
i realize life is more than cleanliness and food but sometimes i think we would do well to just sit with ourselves right now. right here. and be real.
get over the lists.
throw out the rush and frenzy.
give up trying to be better.
just for a minute.
and just be.
this life is a good one.
stop trying to be perfect all the time.
enjoy a little bit of your humanity.
and grab me a milkshake while you're out.
Look at the birds of the air: they neither sow nor reap nor gather into barns, and yet your heavenly Father feeds them. Are you not of more value than they?